Friday, October 28, 2011

Having a good cry!

I don't know why, but I feel like I could just sit down and have a good cry.  I feel so separated from family and friends.  I miss Dee so much!  Some days (like today) it feels like she just passed away.  She was my best friend growing up.  She was 18 years older so it was like having a second mom.  We went places and did things together all the time.  My favorite childhood memories, not that I remember alot, are always with her.  She drove me nuts when she was living with us, all her little quirks.  But I miss her not being around.  No one to talk to.  No way to find out things about mom and dad.  No one to share those memories with.  I don't understand why she had to die so soon.  I am glad she isn't in pain any more, but the loss just overwhelms me sometimes.

Today my thoughts and prayers go out to those who are dealing with a loss, and it doesn't have to be the loss of a person.  Could be a pet or even a job.  Any loss of any kind can cause grief.  I loved my sister very much and the world for me will never be the same without her.  She was a treasure that I only had for a short time, and I regret that I didn't always treat her the way I should have.  I regret that I didn't spend more time getting to know her heart better. 

I love you Dee!!  I know your in a better place, but the space you held in my heart will always long for you. 

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